Waiting for someone i have contacted before to arrive near the grocery store, my back against the wall and one of my foot on it. i was getting tired and that person has yet to come. believing i was deceived and tricked into staying outside the whole night waiting for nothing, i decided to just accept it and go home. but i was unable to. soon after i started moving i was sure someone is tailing me, following me in a suspicious way. i knew what the truth is before it came to light. that this is someone i used to chat a lot with online. we became friends through a game online community there but to think he’s like this in real life just doesn’t make me feel well. not only being late but acting in not very well manners. we never saw each other before but i was sure enough because of one thing. the T-shirt he wore was that of our favorite game and we both know it very well and are huge fans. of course this game is hardly known to the public and our society as its fans are very few fellows who happened to be one of the luckiest or unluckiest. that’s why there can be no doubt that this is who i think he is. i knew i attracted weird people from my experience in life so this was no surprise. i just had to accept it as fact because i can’t run away from my own reality.
i had to confront him. “Hey you over there, are you who i think you are?”, he answered “Yes you do, i was afraid i got the wrong person at first but im glad i was able to find you without much trouble. it must feel very strange for us who were only communicating online to be doing this huh?”. i reply “there is more reason for our meeting than to just talk about our favorite game, i will save that for later because now i want you to do me a favor i can only ask you to do it now”. he thinks for a bit and says “this is our first meeting how am i supposed to useful to you in anyway?”. of course someone like him who up until now only thought of people as those who can never feel the joy we feel because they never had a chance to play our favorite game. i disagree with him on that matter because everyone can find their own joy in life in many different ways without playing this game. i just feel sad for him but no one can change the way someone thinks unless it was very significant. i hoped that i could lead him to change his thinking and start to think of others as individuals with different interests and likes. overall i wouldn’t say he is a bad person, he simply cannot understand people well because of his blinding love and obsession over the game. i get back to him by saying “you can help if you want, its something very important to me so will you please?”. in a shaken and unwanting voice he says “no, not today, i can’t help today and tomorrow and the after. because i’m as useless as i can be, i have never been friends with anyone really. all i do is think badly of everyone around me. no man im too negative to be able to help you, maybe you are my friend or not, i dont know the truth. life is bad for me and i have nothing to go on to”. i had to recalculate everything he just said and process it very well in my mind before i say anything. this was crucial, this was my moment i had needed, this is where change needs to happen. with somewhat of a low voice i say “Thats right, its over for you before you even start. but you have to know first that a “start” can be anywhere, not from when you were born, not when you had fake friends, not when you started playing your favorite game but only when you decide it to be. not done by others but only you, the whole decider factor, the world is all yours if only just only you start from where you want and keep going until the start comes to an end. the end is also just a start to reach the next end and so on. this cycle will forever keep going until it stops on you. so before that just START a new. today marks the day our friendship will progress toward a darkly bright future”. he is out of words, unable to say anything he shed some tears and shakes my hand. i was able to at least change him, with my physiological power that i unfortunately forcefully gained through very hard times. had at last became very useful for me. i was happy, from that point on i was able to hang out with him more and help him with his problems, it was not all bright. we together went through many troubles and problems that at some point could have separated us but we didn’t. we didn’t fall for the lies of the world around us.